A Wittle Sunshine

OK............

2005-11-05T10:57:00.000-08:00

thanks to amy My blog is moving!! lol
http://blog.myspace.com/awittlesunshine

omg it's nuts, takes some getting used to lo, but it seems pretty cool!!
huggggzzz

Ya know......

2005-10-28T11:50:00.000-07:00

since Halloween is approaching, here's my monster name.....what's yours?

TY Kristi!

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Well....

2005-10-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

not getting any better yet, but the good news is not getting any worse either!! WOO HOO!!
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Catching up on alot of movies and some reading, so I consider this not an exacerbation, but an extended holiday! lol Sleep can be good!
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But, I can't wait to be able to be back more as I miss my online family so much! TY all for the emails, cards and phone calls, it means the world to me.
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gonna head off now....
big huggzzzz from me to you!

Slept.....

2005-10-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

finally!!! TY Nyquil!! lol Just wish I felt better today.....thinking another medicine night tonight for me. I forgot how bad common colds can make ya feel since I rarely get them...they suck!!!

I know it will pass, but come on already!!! lol
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Well time to head off yet again. I miss my computer time and all my on-line pals so much! Time for a laptop I'm thinking!!
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Hope your days are great!
huggzzz

Geez!!!

2005-10-12T06:57:00.000-07:00

When it rains, it pours......bad enough I feel like kaka....now I have a wicked cold. AARRGGHH Thanks to my MS I usually do not get colds , but right now my immune system is down and of course I got a cold. No one else has one here, so how the hell did I get it!! lol
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My neighbor just invited my kids over for breakfast before she drives them all to school. She is so very sweet, and mornings like this it helps me so much.
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Today is my sister Kim's birthday....Happy Birthday Kim ..... I love you!!!
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Well that is about all I can do for now. Back to bed for me.
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Hope you all have a fantastic day today!!
hugggzzz

Blah.....

2005-10-03T06:53:00.000-07:00

Dominant Personality: Regret

Good Traits: You don't forget what's
happened. You take the time to yourself to [try
to] get over it.

Bad Traits: You never do get over it.
You're living in the past. You can't change it.

People see you as: A shadow (you're always
left behind), honest, and wise. You may act
like you've been through horrible ordeals that
no one can relate to. The honesty is almost a
plus, but being too honest is your problem. You
don't like being lied to, so you choose not to
lie either.

You're Most Like: Protected. After what
you've experienced you closed up, trying to
figure out what's wrong with you. You're more
extroverted to cover up your feelings, unlike a
protected person.

You Need More: Disappointment. This may
sound off, but you do need it. You have to get
out of the past, and focus on the future.

What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results)
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Hello....

2005-09-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Well, had a nice visit with my mom and a very busy week. I'm spent...lol Just got the kids off to school and I am ready to go back to bed. Think it will take me a week to recoup! J/K
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Going to work in psp this week to make some new things for my members area at WittleHaven. I have a couple of new globes that will be added soon. Right now I am so tired my eyes are crossing! lol
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Think I'm gonna do the breakfast dishes, put in a DVD and rest for a bit......but I'll be back!!
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huggzzzz all

Finally....

2005-09-16T11:09:00.000-07:00

got my links back up!! lol And have more to add soon.
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My mom is coming tomorrow for one week. I am so 'cited. Haven't seen her for over a year. So I may be scarce, but I will be checking in.....can't stay away for too long don't ya know!! lol
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Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!
huggggzzz,
Tracy

So daft......

2005-09-11T19:04:00.000-07:00

So thought I would change my layout like I did my website today. Lost all the links to my friends sites because, doh, I did not save the template! Holy cow is my brain on overload!! lol I will be adding them back soon, and this time I WILL save the template. Think it is time for me to go to bed!! lol Have a great evening all!
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huggggzzz,
Tracy

My thoughts and prayers.....

2005-09-11T15:51:00.000-07:00

go to the victims, families, and all the heros of 911.

We will never forget!!

Well.............

2005-09-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

today is a bit better. So much going on, but today was like WOW....feel ok today! lol
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Got some updates done at my site http://wittlehaven.com in the members area.
Hopefully will find the time to make some new IM letters soon.
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Baby steps right now. Gonna take it slow for a while. I usually rush back in to things and do not get better, so slow going now. I just miss everyone so much when I am not on. Thanks to all who have sent emails and such, I love getting them!!
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Monday is my interview with SSDI, keeping fingers crossed on that one. Actually......praying for a miracle! ;)
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Anywho....time to head off. Have a great weekend everyone!
hugggzz Tracy

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A song from my past.....

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LA Guns

Just another night
And I'm all alone
I wonder where you are
Who you're holding
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And I'm wasting time
By the telephone
It gets harder when there's no way of knowing
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I always thought we'd be together someday
There was nothing that could keep me away
Coulda worked it out somehow
But it's over now
Thought you'd be comin' 'round
But it's over now
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When I close my eyes
I can see your face
There was still so much to discover
All the time we shared
Can't be erased
No you're in the arms of another
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I always thought we'd be together someday
There was nothing that could keep me away
Coulda worked it out somehow
But it's over now
Thought you'd be comin' 'round
But it's over now
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If you broke my heart
I can't let it show
I can take the pain
I can't let you go
Some people change
I guess it had to be
Even though you're gone now
You still mean so much to me
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Just another day
I'm still holdin' on
No matter how I try
I can't shake this feeling
Yeah I'm sitting here
Like nothing's wrong
I'm still lookin' for someone to believe in
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I always thought we'd be together someday
There was nothing that could keep me away
Coulda worked it out somehow
But it's over now

Wow....

2005-09-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

What a couple of weeks this has been. I just want it all to go away...buh bye!! lol
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I must say thank you to all my frenz who are so supportive and helpful during this crap going on in my life. Without them, I'd be lost!! You really do find out who your friends are when you are down. I am truly lucky to have the ones I have.
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I go to my neuro on the 15th, so hopefully he can help this flare go away quicker!! The counseling appoinments with my son and family seem to be going well. It's tough, but so worth it. No matter what you think you know, there is always more to learn! It is taking a huge toll on my health right now, but I know it will pass....it always does. There really is a light at the end of every tunnel....you just have to believe and fight for it sometimes to get there.
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Well gonna head off now and get some more rest! Take care all and remember to always look to the sky....no matter what your beliefs!
hugggzzz

Alone...or are you?

2005-09-07T10:23:00.000-07:00

Gotta love Chicago :)

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YOU'RE NOT ALONE
Chicago (Jim Scott)
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I see you there, a silhouette in the moonlight;
looks like you've given up on love.
You used to be the face in the spotlight;
now lonliness fits you like a glove.
You walk around in your cloak of darkness,
too blind to see the light.
Your wings are broken,
now your spirit can't take flight.
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You're not alone, you're not alone,
while your heart's still young and free.
You're not alone, pick up the phoneand talk to me;
baby, you will seeyou're not alone.
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Pools of sorrow and tears of joy;
There's a broken-up girl for every broken-down boy.
But you don't wanna hear it,you like the rhythm of the blues;
Wanna be a sad story on the late-night news.
I don't mean to burst your bubble,
but the world's got troubles worse than you.
And everybody else out here gets lonely too.
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You're not alone, you're not alone,
I've been waiting patiently.
No, you're not alone, pick up the phone
and talk to me, baby, you will see...
Although your heart is in pieces,
you can't find a reason to try.
You're not alone, while I'm still standing by.
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[Repeat chorus and fade]

More Barry!!! lol

2005-09-02T20:23:00.000-07:00

For my lil buddy Amy!!!

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Can't Smile Without You-
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Artist: Barry Manilow
as sung on "Greatest Hits"
-Arista A2L 8601-
peak Billboard position # 3 in 1978-
Words and Music by Chris Arnold,
David Martin, and Geoff Morrow
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You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and
I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you
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You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away
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And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything
You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you
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Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me
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And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you........

Oh Barry.....Manilow that is!

2005-09-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry, but I LOVE Barry Manilow!!!
I am hoping to be singing this soon!

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I Made It Through The Rain
Barry Manilow
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We dreamers have our ways
Of facing rainy days
And somehow we survive
We keep the feelings warm
Protect them from the storm
Until our time arrives
Then one day the sun appears
And we come shining through those lonely years
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I made it through the rain
I kept my world protected
I made it throught the rain
I kept my point of view
I made it through the rain
And found myself respected
By the others who
Got rained on too
And made it through
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When friends are hard to find
And life seems so unkind
Sometimes you feel so afraid
Just aim beyond the clouds
And rise above the crowds
And start your own parade
'Cause when I chased my fears away
That's when I knew that I could finally say
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I made it through the rain
I kept my world protected
I made it throught the rain
I kept my point of view
I made it through the rain
And found myself respected
By the others who
Got rained on too
And made it through
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We made it through!

Nuther Song!

2005-08-31T07:09:00.000-07:00

Love the Goo Goo Dolls!! lol

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Goo Goo Dolls - Slide

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Could you whisper in my ear

The things you wanna feel

Ill give you anything

To feel it coming

Do you wake up on your own

And wonder where you are

You live with all your faults

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Chorus:

I wanna wake up where you are

I wont say anything at all

So why dont you slide

Yeah were gonna let it, slide

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Dont you love the life you killed

The priest is on the phone

Your father hit the wall

Your ma disowned you

Dont suppose Ill ever know

What it means to be a man

Something I cant change

Ill live around it

Chorus

And Ill do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall

May put your arms around me

What you feel is what you are

And what you are is beautiful

May do you wanna get married

Or run away

And Ill do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall

May put your arms around me

What you feel is what you are

And what you are is beautiful

May do you wanna get married

Or run away

Chorus

Songs--

2005-08-30T07:02:00.000-07:00

Since I am not up to big entries right now, I am gonna put songs that have special meaning to me!

The first is from my Wedding--our first dance

Betcha By Golly Wow
by:
The Stylistics

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There's a spark of magic in your eyesCandyland appears each time you smileNever thought that fairy tales come trueBut they come true, when i'm near youYou're a genie in disguiseFull of wonder and surprise, andBetcha by golly, wowYou're the one that i've been waiting for, foreverAnd ever will my love for you keep growing strongKeep growing strongIf i could, i'd catch a falling starTo shine on you so i'll know where you areAll the rainbows in your favorite shadesTo show i love you, thinking of youWrite your name across the skyAnything you ask, i'll try

'cause betcha by golly, wowYou're the one that i've been waiting for, foreverAnd ever will my love for you, keep growing strongKeep growing strongBetcha by golly, wowYou're the one that i've been waiting for, foreverAnd ever will my love for you, keep growing strongKeep growing strongBetcha by golly, wowYou're the one that i've been waiting for, foreverAnd ever will my love for you, keep growing strongKeep growing strong

Hmmmmm

2005-08-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

Things are a bit out of whack right now! Nothing to worry about, just need some time to get my house in order. The stress is starting to get to me. My legs are not cooperating and the fatigue is yucky!! So I really need to get myself together before it gets worse. Sitting is killing me right now and causing swelling of my leg and pain in my lower back. I told hubby to take me out and shoot me like a lame horse! lol I will get through this, I always do...just a part of me!
I'll be checking in from time to time, but not on daily right now. I'll be back!! lol
I hope you all have a fantastic week!!!
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Oi

2005-08-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday was a complete mess!! The morning into mid afternoon was ok, then the kids came home. My 11 year old ds is having some problems--emotional, anger etc. We are seeing a counselor to help him. Homework time is the worst. They think he may have add/adhd type of issues, but not sure yet. It has been going on for weeks now, but since school started it has come back full force. The concentration is not there and he takes it out on me. So after 1.5 hours of being home and many tears and anger-- the homework was still not done. By now my stress level was very high! So I went into his room and stayed there until he did it....Then fell asleep with a wonderful migrane starting. Then we had dinner and it was back to school night!! HOORAY!!!!.....not!! lol So we get there and see all the teachers. I had to give my ds's teachers a form to fill out for the counselor, and let them know what is going on. So it was ok. We get home and I realize that all the homework that he did not turn in, and got merits removed for this, was in his notebook. So.....We sat down and did it all together. By 10pm I was beat and finally got to bed. So at this point the night was a lil calmer....lol they were all sleeping!! :P At 11pm I hear a **CRASH** I tell my hubby I think it is the hamsters cage in our dd's room. YUP sure enough the cat jumped up and took down the cage! At first we thought Skecher was dead...But he wasn't, just a lil shocked. Poor thing. My dd and I cleaned up the cage put in new bedding and food and got him all set up ok. Finally..back to bed!! Up at 6am and first thing the kids, well 2 of them are fighting.....as usual! What a way to wake up!! Finally get them to school!! WOOHOO!!! And now I am so mentally drained it's not funny. I just so hope that my son gets what he needs out of the counseling. I see where it is all stemming from, but it is so hard to 'fix' it. I always said if I felt any of my kids needed help I would get it for them--and here we are. I am so scared for him....the stress and bottled up emotions he has is so not healthy for an 11 year old or for anyone else for that matter. It's been going on for a long time now, I am so sick of the 'he's just spoiled' and 'he's just having temper tantrums' I could spit! Then I get the 'you do not need this with your MS'.......helloooooo it's not about me, it's about him!!! The only bad thing I see it that the twins get pushed aside as he needs more one on one time. I am trying to find that happy medium so they all get equal time. Please keep my ds in your thoughts and/or prayers. He is my heart!
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So anywho......now that you are depressed!! lol I am gonna watch a couple of movies today and try and recoup from yesterday. I need to get working on my site some more, my msn group, and some web sites for a couple of people that want them.....there are not enough hours in a day!! But I also need to get myself well, so today all the other things will have to wait. Need some me time right now! TY to those who made it through this read....I'm really not as nuts as ya might think! lol --ok maybe a little--
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I hope you all have a wonderful day and an awesome weekend!!

Sooooo Tired.....

2005-08-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

OMG got the serious tireds today!! I can't get moving at all!! I'm drinking my coffee and zoning here, lol....I need to WAKE up!!!
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On a different note, please keep my friend, Nicole's mom, in your thoughts and prayers. She is battleing cancer and needs our good thoughts. I believe in prayer, for those that do not, please keep her in your thoughts.
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Well I am gonna head off for a bit and get a lil rest....be back later! Have a great day all!!

What a Life!!

2005-08-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

TY to all who commented yesterday, made my day. Maybe this blog thing will be o-k!! lol So last night I'm sitting in my computer chair and WHAM.....this pain just grabbed my neck and would not let go. Finally it eased off and then BOOM....my hips and my legs went buh bye!! lol The pain really sucked, thank God for good meds!! Honestly though I'm getting a bit pissed off at this whole MS thing....ok I tried it....don't like it....so go away!! Oh ya....I can be a bit sarcastic at times too!! lol Deal with it! If I make jokes about my MS please don't get offended.....I need to be able to joke about it to deal with it. Otherwise, I'd go completely nuts....we're talking mental ward nuts! You have to find humor in all aspects of your life...taking life too seriously can mess ya up bad.
So anywho, this morning a lil shaky, but much better. Got up and got the kids ready for school and jumped on here. As always working on my www site and posting in my groups. Waiting for the MIL to come over...then more computer things until the kids come home aound 2pm. See ya in a bit!

2005-08-23T13:25:00.000-07:00

Well hang in there with me....So new to this 'blog' thing. LOL But everyone is telling me it would be good for me to write down things that go on in my life......Ok then. Beware as I can be pretty honest, LOL and maybe even use bad language at times, but I will try and be good!! A lil addition....added my pic...click on it to see better, lol Not sure if I like this blog thing!! But as soon as I figure out what to write I'll be back. Mainly today working on my website members area and taking it easy. The kids get home in about 15 minutes, so there goes my computer time!! lol So I will be back tomorrow sometime!